I'm having one of those moments in which I'm feeling like the space capsule making its way back through the earth's atmosphere after a great mission. Kind of feels like this:
I'm being real transparent here, because I know you've probably experienced this before. I know I have. (Here I go again!) I would just like to come through this most recent experience without losing too many heat shield tiles, if you know what I'm saying.
So, I've been working with a team of folks on a project. God gave me some great ideas. I offered up the ideas and got some great feedback. We moved forward. Now, things are being reassessed a little bit, and I'm feeling some "heat." The kind of heat that causes you to be bent out of shape.
Having been in this hot spot before, I know that there are multiple things happening. I have taken a little too much ownership over things, taken too much to heart, and I need to remember that God is still very much in control. I have struggled with being a catalyst for lift-off and then being able to back off, to allow things to happen in His will.
Then, I take stuff personally--anything that strays from the original plan is my fault. And, truly, there is nothing wrong here. Things are just going to proceed differently from the original mission plan.
The bending out of shape comes because nobody radioed me to ask me for my opinion. And, pie-in-the-sky that I've been over this project, maybe they thought I'd be hurt. So, the mission plan was altered and put forward by Mission Control. I still shouldn't be hot over this, though, because they are the leaders and advisers on this mission, and other folks go to them for answers. I'm a tech person. But, I love to fly, if you know what I mean.
As I write, my capsule is still waiting for splashdown. Prayers welcome! I really would like to emerge from the capsule right ready to go back up in the rocket tomorrow, and continue the mission, renewed and relying on the Ultimate Mission Commander, the One who controls the very stars and this very ship.